I want to wrap my legs around your strong hips, as you lift me up and pull me closer. I want to run my fingers through your soft hair and kiss your neck. Slowly trailing up towards your lips, I want to look into your eyes and whisper I love you loud enough so only you can hear.
Put your open lips on mine and slowly let them shut. For they’re designed to be together.
I need to kiss you so badly. One of those kisses where I’m pressing against you as much as possible and my hands are in your hair and moving down your back, clutching to you in any way I can, kissing you as deeply as possible and thinking you’re mine, mine mine.
I miss the way you’re able to calm me. The way you take my stress and turn it on its head. I’m in a weird mood and you’re the one I want to talk to. I feel like I’m taking the wrong career path and my best friend and I are universes apart. Her and I never see each other, even though we live together. We never talk amount things that matter. She’s turning into someone, I don’t think I like. I hate that the most. I hate that I’m not accepting of who she is turning out to be and the life she is leading. I need you. I feel like I’m drowning- in every sense of the word. I feel like everyone is figuring out their life and getting things in order for the future and I’m just here, hoping and guessing that I’m doing the right thing and I’ll like the career I’ve chosen for myself. My second guessing has bite a huge chunk out of me and I don’t know how to fix it. You would know how to fix it. You seem to know what to say when I’m at a loss. You’re always able to get me to see the other side. You make me confident in my choices and my future. I feel like I’m absolutely alone here and all I want to do it go back home. I miss my family. I miss the laughter. I miss the genuine love and comfort. God, I wish you were here. Going through life is hard enough, I don’t want to go through it alone anymore.
From the bottom of my heart,
x’s and o’s.